The untold story of how I have lost one week of my life “How purpose saved my life”
How My Two daughters saved me from the claws of death
Finally, in the emergency room at the hospital, lights flashed in my eyes as doctors
were trying to do everything to stabilize my condition as I receded into unconsciousness
in the midst of other patients. As the doctors were attending to me however, I
could see through my sleepy eyes how what looked like smoke getting out of other
patients like something is evaporating from respective bodies into thin air and
I realized in an instant that it was not smoke but people moving into the afterlife
evidenced by relative screams of loss. It was at that point that I realized I was
witnessing the death of other patients in real-time and I could be next in line to be shipped too as
I was no longer in control of my reflexes. I can’t remember how, but in that moment,
the picture of my two daughters I had left at home with the promise of coming
back after treatment came into my mind and I reminded God that I had two little
daughters and a son all of who were about to be orphaned with no one to take care of
them and if I had to go He (God) needed to come down himself and tell my children why
I was going to miss their next birthdays, their graduations even not to be present
to see their children and above all not to be there to provide for them as they
journey through life. I had promised them when I was rushed to the hospital that
I was going to be back home soon and somebody needed to keep that promise. My two daughters and son at the time were my reason
and purpose for living. With the last breath of effort, I presented my daughters before God and requested not to be taken away from and suddenly everything around me became dark and I only woke up or
became conscious a week later. During that week, I don’t know where I was because
it is still blank and dark to this day. It’s as if that week never existed or
lived at all. That’s the week I cannot account for to this day in my life. I finally woke up from the "nowhere" and the first
thing I saw before me was my eldest daughter standing at the edge of the hospital bed
with tears in her eyes probably wondering and I don't know what at the age of 10.
I shed tears today when I see My daughter who was in grade 8 at the time, who is now a distinguished Biomedical scientist and the younger one who at the time was in grade 2 is now a lawyer. One thing is clear, they saved my life. When life gives you a 2% chance of survival, just remember that 2% is better than 0%. Fill your heart and mind with your purpose or reason for living no matter the odds because that purpose might just be the fuel your life may need to keep your heart beating in your darkest hour. The purpose must not be about you but about positively affecting others for their good AND with great Love. Does it mean that having a purpose will protect you from the valley of the shadow of death? Nope! Its like when your life is full of purpose, your walk in the valley becomes your potion. Why? Wisdom grows out of pain and nobody ever became the greatest athlete from just sleeping 24hrs. whenever you pray for wisdom you are asking for pain and the valley of the shadow of death is the best university for that. The following is what life has taught me;
- Forgive even if it's painful to do so. Forgiveness does not just release the forgiven but it releases the forgiver more to experience a life of bliss. A life of joy that owes no one anything but free to soar like the great Eagle
- Forgive yourself for any
past mistakes you have consciously or unconsciously committed and don’t keep
beating yourself about what should have or not have been done. It’s the past
and don’t go fishing there
- When people reject me! Its
because God needs me alone to show me who I am supposed to be without other people’s
shadows interfering with my real image and identity in God’s own eyes. It's only
when you have experienced rejection can you have the wisdom to help others to
navigate through such in life. As for me, despite having been rejected in the
most horrible way by those who I considered dear to me, I am here still standing
and sharing my story to strengthen somebody. Today, I thank God for the
rejection because through it I have found myself
- When people defile me and
throw me on the rubbish dump of life! I remind myself that Rubbish is the
manure that productive plants grow better in. Some people said it to my face
that I would amount to nothing and wouldn’t go anywhere. I thank God they used
the word ‘go’ in the sentences because I did go somewhere beyond their
imagination, Europe, Hong Kong, Japan, and other African countries to become an even better version of myself that people see today
- When people throw shit at
me, shit is the source material for fertilizer that enables the world to feed
billions of people. There was a time in my early days in the big city of
Lusaka, I experienced difficulties to find where to stay and ended up renting a
one room in one of what could be considered slum areas at the time called the KUKU
compound with no proper sanitation facilities. I didn’t complain because one
room was better than no room at all. To cut the story short within one year I moved
from the slums to one of the most affluent residential areas of Lusaka called
Rodes Park and all cleaned up including driving my own cars. Life has never
been the same since then. However, some so-called Christians still couldn’t fathom
how my life drastically changed including traveling all over the world, sort
of Rags to Riches kind of thing if you like to call it that way. They called me
a devil or practiced satanism for how can a life transform so fast like in the
twinkling of an eye. Well coming to think of it, I must be a very handsome
devil (just for laughs). But that’s the shit people can throw at you when they
can’t conceive how God works in mysterious ways. I allow people to talk about
me maybe because that’s the only productive thing they can afford to do otherwise
they may just go into depression if they have nothing to do. When you are the
topic for others, then you must be at the Top
- When people inflict pain
on me! It's because they are afraid of the Power in me. The level of your
success is determined by the depth of pain you have risen from. Even in real
life the height of a multistorey building is determined by the depth of its
foundation. The higher the building, the deeper its foundation
- The scars you see in my
life are a testimony of how evil tried to destroy me and failed. Some scars are
very difficult to hide and if you are here and reading this, just know that you
are powerful beyond measure and the devil failed to destroy you.
Therefore,
though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil, for
thy rod and thy staff shall forever sustain me. Whatever you are going through
today, don’t curse God. Everything is for your own good.
Some
of the people you see or hear who fly in planes day in and day out for
vacation or business, were not born at the airport. They are people who were
once just like everybody else. They just never allowed the horrors of their
life to define and confine them. Don’t let what you are going through define
you otherwise, you will forever be in your own created prison for life.
The Lord has since blessed me with Five precious children, Three girls, and two boys not forgetting my Four noisy grandchildren that keep me awake.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY
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